My Walk with God: Forgiveness

I'm really sad right now. This morning, my parents yelled at me for a very long time. It didn't make things any better that my mom went to go talk to my dad about it. They aren't very happy with me. They don't trust me at all, and they think I go out way too much. Then, after my mom discussed this with my dad, he blew up at her, and at me. Now, I'm not allowed to drive anymore. Only once a week. which is pretty much not driving anymore. It's just so stressful and depressing that I got my driving privileges taken way when I haven't done anything wrong. That's not even the whole problem. My dad, well, it just feels like we don't have a really good father-daughter relationship. It seems like he doesn't really love me as much as my two younger brothers. I am his least favorite. He constantly yells at me, and gets angry at me whether or not it is my fault. I do have to admit; most of the time it is my fault, but sometimes it isn't. And when it isn't, he holds this assumption that it is. I don't know, it just makes me really upset sometimes. I am not as loved as the others. But the thing is, it's not even entirely his fault. Most of the time it is my fault too. I always ask for too much, and I never appreciate what I have.

For example, this entire scenario wouldn't have happened if I didn't want more, as in want to drive to BOTH gym AND russo's. At first my mom let me choose just one place to go. But I had to open my stupid big mouth, and keep begging for more. Therefore, it caused her to talk to my dad about it. He got really angry, and screamed at me, saying I always want to go out. Then compromised that I can only drive once a week. I feel really bad. I shouldn't have been so greedy. Oh Lord, I just need your forgiveness for always yelling and arguing back. It's just been so hard for me. Just forgive me Lord Jesus. I really need You.

But even with this whole situation happening to me, I still have to remember to,

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice." Philippians 4:4

Stop being mean, bad-tempered, and angry. Quarreling, harsh words, and dislike of others should have no place in your lives. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving you because you belong to Christ.

Ephesians 4: 31-32

Oh Lord Jesus. Just because my dad doesn't have Christ doesn't mean I should be like him too.

"Become therefore imitators of God, as beloved children;" Ephesians 5:1

The footnote for this verse says, "What a GLORIOUS fact that since we are HIs beloved children we can be imitators of God! as the children of God, we have His life and nature. We imitate Him, not by our natural life, but by His divine life. it is by our FATHER's DIVINE LIFE that we, His children, can be perfect as He is." Indeed it is glorious! Christ forgave us for all our sins, and not only forgave but forget.

Forgive me Lord. I shouldn't have been angry with him, instead, I need to forgive him. If You can forgive us after all the sins we have committed, I need to be able to. But, I'm not able to do this by myself. I need You Lord.

"I can do all things in Him who empowers me." Philippians 4:13

Praise the Lord for His Loving Nature and ability to forgive and forget about all our sins. I just need Christ to be my Strength and empowerment in order to forgive my dad, and not hold it in my heart. But really, the thing is: I just need God.