My Walk with God:Forgiveness

I'm really sad right now. This morning, my parents yelled at me for a very long time. It didn't make things any better that my mom went to go talk to my dad about it. They aren't very happy with me. They don't trust me at all, and they think I go out way too much. Then, after my mom discussed this with my dad, he blew up at her, and at me. Now, I'm not allowed to drive anymore. Only once a week. which is pretty much not driving anymore. It's just so stressful and depressing that I got my driving privileges taken way when I haven't done anything wrong. That's not even the whole problem. My dad, well, it just feels like we don't have a really good father-daughter relationship. It seems like he doesn't really love me as much as my two younger brothers. I am his least favorite. He constantly yells at me, and gets angry at me whether or not it is my fault. I do have to admit; most of the time it is my fault, but sometimes it isn't. And when it isn't, he holds this assumption that it is. I don't know, it just makes me really upset sometimes. I am not as loved as the others. But the thing is, it's not even entirely his fault. Most of the time it is my fault too. I always ask for too much, and I never appreciate what I have.

For example, this entire scenario wouldn't have happened if I didn't want more, as in want to drive to BOTH gym AND russo's. At first my mom let me choose just one place to go. But I had to open my stupid big mouth, and keep begging for more. Therefore, it caused her to talk to my dad about it. He got really angry, and screamed at me, saying I always want to go out. Then compromised that I can only drive once a week. I feel really bad. I shouldn't have been so greedy. Oh Lord, I just need your forgiveness for always yelling and arguing back. It's just been so hard for me. Just forgive me Lord Jesus. I really need You.

But even with this whole situation happening to me, I still have to remember to,

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice." Philippians 4:4

Stop being mean, bad-tempered, and angry. Quarreling, harsh words, and dislike of others should have no place in your lives. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving you because you belong to Christ.

Ephesians 4: 31-32

Oh Lord Jesus. Just because my dad doesn't have Christ doesn't mean I should be like him too.

"Become therefore imitators of God, as beloved children;" Ephesians 5:1

The footnote for this verse says, "What a GLORIOUS fact that since we are HIs beloved children we can be imitators of God! as the children of God, we have His life and nature. We imitate Him, not by our natural life, but by His divine life. it is by our FATHER's DIVINE LIFE that we, His children, can be perfect as He is." Indeed it is glorious! Christ forgave us for all our sins, and not only forgave but forget.

Forgive me Lord. I shouldn't have been angry with him, instead, I need to forgive him. If You can forgive us after all the sins we have committed, I need to be able to. But, I'm not able to do this by myself. I need You Lord.

"I can do all things in Him who empowers me." Philippians 4:13

Praise the Lord for His Loving Nature and ability to forgive and forget about all our sins. I just need Christ to be my Strength and empowerment in order to forgive my dad, and not hold it in my heart. But really, the thing is: I just need God.

My Walk with God: Stress.

Just now, I just experienced an extremely stressful situation. It's been so difficult to go through.

I just feel I have way too many expectations for people, that are extremely unnecessary. I ask God for forgiveness from all these expectations I have from others. Because really, everything else WILL disappoint us eventually. No matter what it is. This time, for me, it was because of a friend. I expected from this person to eventually become my best friend later on, and pressured him. However, after doing this, I immediately felt so much guilt. I repented to God, and felt so much peace afterwards.

Anyways, we just need to trust in God in everything He plans for our lives. We cannot rely on ourselves or others anymore. Everything WILL disappoint us. The only thing that won't upset us is Christ Himself. That's all we need. Just God.

Even though the problem may still exist, God is there to guide us through the pains, the sorrows, the stress, and our unhappiness. He's the only one we can rely on.

Verses

It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. (Deuteronomy 31:8)

It's absolutely correct! he will NEVER fail us or forsake us. We don't need to worry anymore. We just need to trust 100% in Him!

The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. (Psalm 9:9-10)

You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. (Psalm 32:7-8)

Praise the Lord! He has given us a place to stay: IN HIM!

It's absolutely wonderful the feeling I have right now. To be in the Spirit, turning to our God. So marvelous!

Currently, I'm listening to "What made you die for me?" by Living Stream Ministry.

What made you die for me?

I was your enemy.

You became a curse for me.

Oh, what a mystery.

My God, you died for me.

You died for me, your enemy.

We were his enemy, but now we can finally be in Him! Praise the Lord!

My Walk with God: Satisfaction.

Satisfaction: noun,

the contentment one feels when one has fulfilled a desire, need, or expectation.

Today, many consider money, fame, power, and other materialistic objects as things that satisfy us. We constantly search and search for the one thing that gives us content. However, these things really, have no worth. They might give us temporary happiness, but they really do not fill us up. The only thing that can actually satisfy us is Christ Himself.

My Daily Testimony:

Basically, today was just a normal, regular day. I went to summer school for an hour class, waited for my mom to pick me up, and went to costco and came home. I sat around, looking for something to do. Then, with my new privileges (I can finally drive now!), I drove to Kohl's and Target, hoping to entertain myself. However, shopping was quite dull. I wasn't into it, whatsoever. I just felt so unhappy. I thought to myself, "maybe if I bought something? Then maybe I can be happy." However, after trying on about 20 clothes, and finding only two appealing, I considered buying it. But I don't know, there was just something in my heart that was telling me not to buy it. God. He told me it wasn't necessary, and I should just head home. I came home emptyhanded, and still wasn't satisfied with my monotonous day. My next best option: Watching tv. I turn it on, then lay on the couch for a good 3 hours, hoping to feel something, like a happiness of some sort. There was none, whatsoever. I didn't feel anything. Just more stress and unhappiness, and burdened for something to do. Exhausted, I went to my computer and started to talk to friends, but yet this emptiness still existed there.

but HALLELUJAH! After longing for hours, I was finally filled up with Christ Jesus! He satisfied me completely, and filled the hole in my heart.

I know I haven't posted in a long time. RANDOM.

so finally here's an entry:D

So Bakersfield, CA has been pretty boring.

So I got hair extensions:D

They're dark brown, so they match my hair completely. Finally, long hair that I have been waiting for.




Today I shopped at mall and got that purple shirt from Charlotte Russe. It was only 4 dollars:] plus tax. but that's really whatever. my mom gave me money anyways.


haha just an a few weeks ago i editted my picture with some photo editting thing that my cousin (wanyi @ www.whymewanyi.blogspot.com) showed me. I think it's pretty coooool.:]


So, i went swimming with my homies. The pool was absolutely amazing. It had a gorgeous scenery.

& it was huge..

I can't wait to go someplace like this with my future boyfriend.:]

(hahaah. not husband because this place is not good enough. I really can't wait for my honeymoon.

Hawaii baby.


And yes those are my sexy feet. :P Haha just kidding.

You know, when summer is so dull and boring, what i do for fun, besides SAT classes (yes they are amazingly fun:P) are taking photoshoots with myself.
And yes, i know i have no life.

My backyard is really pretty. I'm so happy we got grass recently. :) It costs my parents a lot of money.









Well, for all you asian girls out there who want to see white guys. (yes i mean YOU! [wanyi's friends]) here is one. I took it with him in Korea, when we went on an orch. trip.

These are the guys that all the korean girls went crazy for. (ie: stalked all over korea to hug/kiss them)---especially the blonde one on the right.
More of the first guy who took a picture with me. Actually, my friends thought he was interested in me too, because he kept talking to me, and smiling at me. However, we found out that he had a girlfriend.
Sadly.
Lots of Korean girls loved him too.
However, not as much as they loved the blonde one in the other picture.

Haha i got a lot of adoring "fans" too. They wanted to take pictures with me and shake my hand. Completely different from American girls. (which some are sluts.)



For you guys' pleasure, more white guys.:D
next to him, is my bestfriend, Josh. He's superr chillll. :D
P.S. this white guy has a six pack!

This was me and my prom date. :]
I dont like to show a lot of people these pictures because I thought i looked not good.:(

Anyways, it's been a long random blog.



love,
liizkoo.:]

muah. kisses.

found this ;]

funniest shit ever.
so true. so so true.

You Are Gracious and Amicable
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

7.04.09 Shittiest Fourth of July EVER.

Hey guys.
Well for fourth of July coming to San Diego was the worst decision I have ever made ever.
It's Iris's last year here, & I can't even go back to Bakersfield to spend the last year for her.
What I'm stuck doing here is studying for my US History exams.
FML.
Then, we're leaving really late, so it's like going to be like 11 or 12 when we get home.
I'm going to go back to Bakersfield for nothing.
I hate my life.
It sucks.
I can't go back.
If I do , I don't think I can make it back.
It really depresses me .
There's nothing to do in this house.
It's so boring.
I swear.
I want to leave., see Iris and my best friend.
So badly.
We're not going to the beach anymore.
What our original plan was,
We can't go here .
It's beautiful.
& yes I took it.
But, we AREN't GOING THERE.
I'm not doing shit today.
I don't count homework as shit.
I hate life, currently.
This Fourth of July blows.

7.04.09, 1:24 AM, People who think me & my bestfriend are dating...

are annoying as fuck.

(sorry for profanity but it is.)

I deal with this shit all the time.

We are not dating.

We are not boyfriend/girlfriend.

Although we act like it, we just like the chill & have fun,

cuz we're just amazing to do that.

I get people

all the time saying to Josh,

"you should date lizkoo.

If not, you should fuck her."

What the hell.

Is wrong with all you people.

I just hang out with him so much because he's an amazing person.

& we've been so close for so long.

Like ever since 8th grade, even though i was a bitch to him.

I starting ranting on and on to him about how this pisses me off.

It was especially annoying seeing my cousin saying on a facebook comment,

of me and josh (I dont know if she thinks I'm dating him or what, I told her we were only bestfriends, and she thinks it's inappropriate to have a boy bestfriend. Even though she has some. I think? Let's not assume, she could use this info against me.)

Anyways it was this picture:

She said, "elizabeth!!!

wtf?!?!?!?!!!
were exactly was this?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's not like we were dating either. It was just for a dance at this medical program called HOSA, and we just accidently matched. So we decided to take a pictures.

As .

Best .

Friends .

It pisses me off how dense some people are .

Not believe me .

I just retorted back at her, "It was at the HOSA medical program. "

Maybe it seems liek we're dating.

Maybe we are.

Wait, we can't ever .

Because no matter if he wants to or likes me,

I dont like him .

& I think that's the main thing of it.

IF we had a mutual in love for each other.

Then we will date.

For now, we don't.

If we marry, it's fine, it doesn't matter, because I know that God has everythign planned out for our lives.

If we don't, alright, we'll have better people for us.

I just hate how people make generalizations about us, when we're not even in love.

Well, I guess this makes me feel a lot better, ranting on and on.

It gives me peace.