Our faith can move mountains

"And He said to them, Because of your little faith; for truly I say to you, If you have faith like a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, Move from here to there, and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you." Matt 17:20 

"And looking upon them, Jesus said to them, With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matt 19:26 

Footnote 1 for impossible: By our human life it is impossible to enter into the kingdom of the heavens, but it is possible by God's divine life, which is Christ Himself imparted into us so that we can live the kingdom life. By Christ, who empowers us to do all things, we can fulfill the requirements of the kingdom.

This week has been one of continual ups and downs, but I am realizing that my Lord is continually interceding for me. All the time.  Sometimes my faith is so small, but whenever I have no faith, I just remember the Lord's word.  With God, ALL things are possible.  Everything that God desires to do, He will accomplish through the life that is now dwelling in us.  Everyday although it might seem hard or exhausting, despite all the troubles and situations, the Lord continue shows us that Christ's life is imparted in us so we can live this Christian life. 

But what's the point of all the Christian life to live Christ and enjoy Him? It's not for ourselves to have a good and happy life, but it's for the Lord to gain His kingdom on this earth.   I really been appreciating this week that there are 3 wills in the universe: God's will, Satan's will, and human will. Praise the Lord that He gave us a will to choose.  The spiritual warfare actually stems from the conflict between the divine will and the satanic will.  In the morning revival this week it states, "Although there were three wills, the controversy involved just two parties--God and Satan. The crucial issue was whether man would choose the divine will or the satanic will. If the human will stood with God's will, then God's will would be accomplished. But if the human will took sides with the satanic will, Satan's will would be carried out, at least temporarily. As we know man chose to follow Satan and sided with the satanic will. Therefore, Satan was victorious temporarily." The word I really appreciated in the paragraph was temporarily. Although it might have seemed that man chose Satan and Satan won that battle, but in the end, the Lord will gain His kingdom and His glory forever. No matter how much at that time man rebels and chooses Satan's will at that time, the Lord knows how to properly deal with every single one of his children until they fully submit to Him.  He is faithful and righteous to His words, and He will not stop until He gains His kingdom on earth. 

This week I thought I was walking according to the Lord's will by not talking to the guy when he went back to China, because I wanted him to care about me more/commit to me or something. But towards the end of the week, I felt myself exhausted, and so tired. I thought I was walking according to the Lord's will, but even my spirit felt depressed and I had no energy nor power from the supply of the spirit. The enemy kept attacking my whole being, and I even ended up losing the presence of God, and even ate a lot of foods at once to fill the void within.  At that point, when I reached the end of my struggling with the Lord, I finally submitted to His will and texted the guy.  But immediately after I did, I felt such a rest and peace within, and the next day when we finally talked on the phone, my fellowship with the Lord was restored once again.  All the authority of darkness and negative thoughts and lies from the enemy was subjected under the Lord's feet.  I thought I was walking according to the Lord, but I was really in myself, and not willing to submit to the Lord's will until He stripped me utterly of every natural strength and power I had.  Living at that point was so difficult, and exhausting, and I had no energy to study.  But once I submitted to God's will, my strength was renewed, and the Lord's presence came back to me.  This is when I knew that I cannot hinder God even temporarily anymore. I do not want my will to be one with the enemy's will. It's okay for me to text him and contact him, because when I do, I am just following the Lord and His will for us to eventually be together.  In the end, I do see that the Lord was the initiator of this relationship, The Lord was the one behind the scenes, opening every single way for us to interact, for us to get closer, for us to be together.  Even though now we are separated by an ocean, I believe that when God has a way, He will work it out according to His perfect will. Although maybe at some point, man temporarily hinders him by choosing Satan's will, God WILL do something in us human beings to cause us to submit to Him.  The Lord utterly destroyed every confidence I had in myself this week and showed me that apart from Him, I can do nothing.  I need Him to supply me with the spirit everyday.  I need the shining from the Lord more and I just need to come to Him just as I am to receive the present supply of the spirit everyday. 
In my heart, I truly believe that the Lord wants us to be together for some reason.  Although it seems impossible, and so difficult to come, but The Lord is faithful to His will. Because this is all for His kingdom. Actually, in God's eyes, there is no limitation of time.  In His eyes, everything He longs to accomplish has already been done when He died and resurrected and ascended on the cross. Everything negative has been abolished, and NOW He holds the keys of death and of Hades.  This has already been done thousands of years ago. As the church, we just have to declare HIS victory. We have such a glorious future because Christ has chosen us before the foundation of the world.

"...And there were loud voices in heaven, saying, The kingdom of the world has become the kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ, and He will reign forever and ever." Rev 11:15

 "...Now has come the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ, for the accuser of our brothers has been cast down, who accuses them before our God day and night." Rev 12:10 

God's enemy WILL be defeated, and God's eternal purpose will be fulfilled.  But He NEEDS our cooperation as the church. He cannot do it without the church to bind Satan and destroy his power. The Head has overcome; now the Body must also overcome.  The Lord will do it, but He will not operate without His church, His members of His body to cooperate with Him, in submitting to His will. 

Although in the grand scheme of things, it seems that my relationship stuff is such a small matter in what the Lord is doing in this age and earth. However, without my cooperation in the small daily things, and things I care about like my marriage, God cannot gain the victory over Satan to shame the enemy in what he is doing today.  So if the Lord wants me to deny my natural man, and deny myself in contacting the guy, I am willing Lord. Because if this will bring in your kingdom, to exercise your authority over the enemy, I am willing to lose my soul life in this age. Because at the end of the day, I ONLY want what the Lord's desire is.  He has done it all, and in my eyes, because the Lord has already done it, I also stand with Him and declare the facts, that God's will has already been accomplished on this earth. 

So I declare with the Lord standing behind me, and exercising my will to cooperate with His will:
God will bring us together according to Himself, the guy will meet with the saints in China because God needs him as such a precious member of the Body. The Lord will be the Head of our relationship, and we will be together. No matter if we separate, or how far we are right now, the Lord will operate in the environment to bring us back together. According to His timing, the Lord will release when our engagement will be. The Lord will release when our marriage will be. This has all been ordained by Him Before the foundation of the world, and it's time for the kingdom of the world to become the kingdom of our Lord and of His Christ. 

So I say and declare right now Amen Lord! I submit to your perfect will. Release what you desire to be released. Release this relationship from all the hindrances from Satan. Exercise your righteous authority because You are the head and you are the initiator. You desire that our engagement be released, we be joined together in marriage because it is all for Christ and the church.  The more that I am one with the Lord, the more my eyes are turned away from earthly things, and my mind is set on the heavenly things.  God has done it. He has won the victory. He has gained both me and the guy as a vessel unto honor, and brought us together in marriage for His good pleasure. Praise the Lord for what He has already done in this universe! Satan has NO more ground in both of us and our being. Praise you Lord!